Thursday, May 28, 2009
One look at Sophie this morning and I was in tears. Just as the doctors predicted, she is starting to swell. They said today would be the worst. Her left eye is swollen almost completely shut. The gauze around her head just won't stay on. They have reinforced it so many times and it just keeps riding up. The last thing I need to see at the moment is what is underneath all that gauze. I can already see a few stitches peaking through and the actual wires coming out of the back of her head. ACK!!!
Then, as soon as Brandon walked out of the room and I was left alone with her, she woke up. Broke my heart! I tried to hold it all in for her. To be strong at the moment but it was hard. She didn't even try sitting up. Her left eye just barely visible. And she cried and moaned like she was in pain. All I wanted to do was swoop her up in my arms. She looks so weak and it breaks my heart that I can't hold her. After only a few minutes, she settled down and went back to sleep. I called the nurse and requested another dose of morphine (she hadn't had any since 2am).
Jason took the first part of the night shift and from what I have heard...she did great. Brandon took over around 5am. After he posted his updated, she vomited once. They gave her some more Zofran. She has had no desire to drink anything since she has left the ICU. Her mouth looks so dry but she doesn't want me to swab it with water. I've been putting a lot of vaseline on her lips to keep them from drying up too much.
She is sleeping peacefully at the moment. We just need to get through the next 22 hours. Once she is in the hands of Dr. Sood and Dr. Asano, I believe all will be well. They are amazing doctors. I am anxious to meet with them to find out what the consensus will be in what areas of the brain they would like to remove.