I'm freaking out...

There is no other way to put it. I can't process the information I just received. A neurologist that works under Dr. Chugani just called me. She wanted to get a history of Sophie since our last visit in October. THEY ARE GOING TO PRESENT HER TO THE SURGICAL COMMITTEE on Monday!!! What did they see in the EEG??? I asked but she wanted to wait until Tuesday to discuss. I am in shock. This was the last thing I ever expected. I have (or had...not sure how I feel at the moment) given up on all hope that Sophie would ever be a surgical candidate. It just did not sound promising. It still does not sound promising. When the epileptologist reviewed her EEG with me at the hospital, she saw nothing that would point towards Sophie being a surgical candidate. Even though I had the EEG on a CD before I left the hospital, I waited until just this past Monday evening to mail it. I thought there was no point. But I had to send it. That was the whole reason we had the EEG in the first place...because Dr. Chugani had requested it. I am so glad it's Friday. Good Friday. Brandon took off work today. My brother from San Diego is in town visiting. And my sister, her husband and their little boy from Chicago are in town visiting. We have lots of fun things planned for the weekend. A lot to keep me busy. To keep my mind from going there. Because after the disappointment from last time, I don't know if my heart can take it.