Sunday, February 17, 2008
It is so hard for me to keep up with this blog...emotionally and physically. We are still in limbo regarding IVIG treatments as we have to meet with a neurologist at the Epilepsy Center at Children's Hospital as our regular neuro is not familiar with IVIG treatment. Of course, nothing is ever easy. It took 3 phone calls to the Epilepsy Center and a phone call to our regular neuro before we finally got an appointment. When the receptionist at the Epilepsy Center finally called us back with an appointment, the earliest appointment they could give us was April 21st. So then I had to call our regular neuro again since he said they should be getting us in within the next couple of weeks NOT in a couple of months. I am still waiting to hear back from our regular neuro. Of course, nobody is in a rush to get things done because it's not THEIR CHILD HAVING DAILY SEIZURES!!! Can you tell I am frustrated??? I am just so tired. Tired of always being Sophie's advocate. Tired of fighting. Tired of researching new treatment options. Tired of watching Sophie having seizures everyday. Tired of all the therapy sessions. Tired of not living a normal life. Tired of wondering what Sophie's future will be like. Tired of working with Sophie everyday to get her to do things that she should have been doing a year ago. Tired of feeling guilty. But Sophie keeps me going. That precious smile of hers. She is just so incredibly adorable. I love her so much.