Monday, January 11, 2010

I'm back...

It's 9:43am on Monday morning. I have exactly 1 hour and 42 minutes of freedom.

I'm sitting at Starbucks, enjoying a latte*, and kid-free! Sophie and Elsa are at preschool and my mom is watching Charlie. I decided updating my blog was more important than buying groceries**.

Monday mornings is "me" time. The only time in the entire week where I can sneak off without an agenda in mind. I'm not allowed to come home until after I pick up Elsa. So I do whatever my heart desires. And today it is this very much neglected blog.

Sorry for taking so long to update. It has been chaotic. Especially with Sophie and Elsa off for winter break. I have been overwhelmed. Things are starting to return to my new normal.

My new normal. That is what has thrown me off these last 7 months. My world has been rocked. I had a very hard time readjusting to my new life. Although it is a better life, change is hard for me. Sophie is a COMPLETELY different person. Of course, I don't miss the seizures. But, at times, I miss my old Sophie. The one that I grew to love and cherish for a little over 3 1/2 years. But I have the new and improved Sophie. The one that remains seizure-free. The one that is TALKING. Actually talking. Not just labeling objects or people. But actually using words without being prompted. All kinds of words. Hundreds and hundreds of words. On a daily basis, I am amazed at the new words I hear that I have no idea how she has learned them. On top of all of that, she is consistently stringing three words together. Like "open the door" or "more snack please".

Then there was the birth of Charlie exactly one month on the day of coming home from the hospital with Sophie. No further explanation needed on how that changes the family dynamics.

So, I'm back. Ready to do a lot of updating. Starting with our last visit to Detroit. It has been a very emotional time. I will try to take you through it all. But I am in a good place right now. Meaning "right now". As I try to take each day as it comes. And the scale has finally tipped in my seems my good moments in a day are outweighing the exhausted, frustrated moments.

* I am "enjoying" a non-fat, no whip, mocha latte...trying to lose that baby weight. And, yes, I realize drinking a latte, no matter how you make it, isn't part of a diet plan. But I have to cut corners somewhere.

** Going to the grocery store is kind of a joke. Thanks to my INCREDIBLE mother-in-law. More on that later.


Lori said...

So glad you're back. I missed you guys!


Lisa said...

I can't imagine what it must have been like to give birth just a few weeks after Sophie's surgery! Julia's wiped me out, add a newborn on top of everything...well, no wonder you've been exhausted!

So glad you're back too. And woohoo about Sophie's speech! That is just amazing!

(FWIW, I often miss the old Julia too, even though life is so much better without seizures)

JSmith5780 said...

YAY, you're back!

Missed hearing about everyone and checked in almost daily hoping for an update.

3 words?!? That's fabulous. Before you know it, you'll be wanting the peace and quiet back :) at least for a little bit!

Adesta said...

Glad to see, read?, that you are back! I've missed reading about all of you!

Yay Sophie! So excited that she's stringing words together. Like Jen said, there will come a time thought that you will wish for that quiet, for just a few moments though. :)

Glad to hear that you are getting "me" time on Monday mornings. And yay for mother in law's that help out in any way they can! Mine has watched all my girls til they hit school. Best babysitter ever!

So, welcome back ;)

MJStump said...


So glad to hear that you are getting more settling in to your new life. We have definitely missed you!

I can't imagine how much things have changed for you, and the addition of Charlie, and all the changes you have had to make. One thing we all know is how strong you guys are, and that you will come out on top :)

Great to hear how well Sophie is doing..that must be amazing to watch her grow!

Glad to hear that you have such great family support that is helping you get some much deserved time for yourself.

Thank you for always being a great support!

Hugs and prayers,

Anonymous said...

Glad to see you here and hope to see all of you in person this weekend!!


Colby said...

So happy to hear all the good news! I can't imagine the complete chaos you have had these last few months! But it has all turned out to be a wonderful NEW life for you and your family!

Sophie IS a different child....AMAZING!!! What a miracle she is!

Take good care...


PS: I've neglected my blog as well, and I DON'T have a newborn!!!

Sinead said...

Glad to see you back. I keep looking it up thinking I must have missed a new post. I have been dying to find out how Sophie is doing.